i found out this yung hotty likes me because his face lit up a bunch when he saw me with my hair down and this person tried to hide it but it was evident they digged it. i think i like this person now. i like to be the only one this person invites. i think from now on im going to do that if ever i need a friend to join me at like idk a park or something. yeah, next time i want to go to a park at night, in the summer when it's not as hot, i'll invite this person. and we will sit there and get personal and maybe i will finally tell them how happy they make me. this boy has got me {insert old rnb lyrics like something about boys and cute nice things boys do like i get soo weak in the knees blah blah etc}. haha whattheheck o boys got me under a dang spell/. i think its dumb when ppl worry. i always worry and 2 weeks arfter, i think, oh wow how amazing that went. that was a wonderful day. im going2 listen2 landmines by st. vincent now bc life is grand, im alive,im stress-free. u always were in lov with me but u always thought i hated you even after i said i didnt. u are paranoid boi but who cares. im loving this boys flaws and  he is not bothered with mine. we have spent so much time together and more time to spend. hopefully we go to home depot for my bday haha yeah lets do that go to home depot and giggle and spend time and look at the lamps damn those lightbulbs and chandeliers are alluring i want to steal them and have sex with them hell yeah please have a great night if you need landscaping services in illinois let me know lol